god knows i tried.

does god know i tried?

are people planets?

is their grief a sun

they refuse to stop orbiting?

can i break the cycle?

(i cannot)

god knows i have tried

to throw a wrench

into maddening spirals

to get them to go

spinning out of orbit

but i have failed,

and each time i do

i become a moon

a tiny piece of rock

inconsequential; unnamed

orbiting the planet that is them

as it circles a sun blazing with their grief

and i fall prey

to what i tried to mend.

a curse; im cursed to never outrun

everything i have tried to fix.

-fatima.